So much has happened in the last few days. On Friday we were given the staff list for next year. It wasn't a huge surprise to see my name listed under third grade. But even though I was fully expecting it, there was a part of me that was hopeful that I would still be placed in second grade. But I was completely shocked when I saw Suzanne moved to fourth grade! That was a real big surprise! Even though I am still hoping to get pregnant within the next few months and not go back to work next year, it was just something I didn't want to have to worry about. If I had been placed in second grade again next year then I woulnd't even have to think about all this right now, but that just wasn't how it worked out. Tomorrow I am going to be speaking with the dreaded chief penguin (that is what our principal calls herself...long story!) and I have a lot of things that I want to say to her. I just have to pray for the right words because I do still have to work for her for another 2 months and she can surely make those 2 months miserable. The bottom line is that if she doesn't keep me in second grade, then I will be leaving. I already know that she won't be able to keep me in second grade because she has already promised my spot to someone else. So Brian and I are completely prepared for me to quit. That is what I have wanted for so long, but now that it is right in front of me, I am a little hesitant. I want more than anything to be a stay at home mom and I can't wait for that to happen, but since I am not pregnant yet it scares me a little to be unemployed and not bringing in any kind of salary. Of course Brian has worked out all the financial stuff and has run all the numbers to make sure that it will work out, and it will! But I am still nervous for this big change. I worked very hard to become a teacher and I truly do love what I do. I love teaching and I love kids! It is just so sad that the reason I am leaving is because of my horrible boss. She has run so many great people out of our school and I don't think she even cares in the least. But I will not just walk away quietly. I will definitely let her know how I feel and will try to speak for some of the other teachers that are not able to speak for themselves because they have to kiss up so as to not lose their jobs. She just needs to know that she is making so many people miserable! If it weren't for her, my job would be great.
Anyway, all that blabbing is just to say that I am truly excited to quit my career to focus on becoming a mom. I can already feel this tremendous amount of pressure that has been lifted off my shoulders. We now have all the time we need to try to get pregnant and we are not under any sort of time crunch. This is exactly what I have been praying for. So even though my leaving my teaching career is bittersweet, I know that this is exactly how the Lord planned it. He wanted me to stop working and this is how he chose to make that happen. The most amazing blessing is that Brian is the one that told me to quit. I never thought he would be the one to encourage me to stop working. He is always so concerned about the financial aspect of living on one salary, but now he is completely on board. That is how I know that this is the Lord's plan for my life right now. I know that the Lord placed this on Brian's heart because I know that he would have never told me to quit on his own.
Please pray for me as this new chapter of my life will begin at the end of May. It is so exciting to take this leap of faith but it is also a bit scary.