Yesterday I got the results from my blood tests that I had run last week. Everything came back normal. These results brought me mixed emotions...Of course I am happy that nothing is wrong with my hormone levels, however I am also a bit disappointed. I was sort of hoping that they would find something a little off with my hormones and then be able to work it out with some meds. That seemed like the easiest "solution". But, that's not how the Lord has this planned. So, now the next step is to do the HSG x-ray of my fallopian tubes. This is where they will shoot some dye into my fallopian tubes and check for blockage. I know that this procedure itself isn't a huge deal (although it is possibly going to be pretty painful), however it's what they could find that scares me a bit. I was hoping for an "easy fix" and now it looks like it might be something more "major" that might involve surgery of some sort. The x-ray has been scheduled for Thursday morning. My parents will be in town that day, so I will have my mom here to take care of me, which is definitely nice! Brian is going to go with me to the appointment (and my mom too!) so that I won't be all alone. I've heard that the actual test only takes about 10 minutes and is more painful if you do have some sort of blockage. After the test I expect to have some cramping for the remainder of the day. I am also hoping that they will be able to give me some preliminary results on the day of the test.
Once this test is over (and if it comes back normal), I'm not sure what the next step is. It is possible that the doctor would put me on Clomid for a few cycles to see if that helps, but I'm not sure. I'm sure there are other tests they can run also...who knows. I guess eventually this could all lead to IUI or IVF....we'll see. For now we are just trusting that the Lord will lead us through this. Something I have wrestled with in the past (and continue to) is trying to figure out the balance between relying on the Lord and the actions we should take. My latest thoughts on that are that no matter what we do (sit around and do nothing or go through every possible test) the outcome will be the same. I know that the Lord will open my womb in His timing, no matter what I do. So, we are left with the choice of action (do these tests) or idle waiting (not doing all these tests). We have chosen, for now, to take action. We don't know what means the Lord has planned out for us, but this testing may be the way He has planned for us to become parents. So, we act...we completely trust the Lord and understand that He is in complete control. We know that there is nothing we can or can't do to change His plan and we are thankful for that! I know that one day we will look back on this time and see the Lord's hand in all of this. We will understand more clearly all of our "why" questions. Until then, we walk in faith, relying on the Lord for all our needs!