Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Another month...

My heart is a bit crushed right now. I had waited as long as I could to take a pregnancy test this month and just couldn't wait any longer. Well, I just took one this afternoon and it was negative. I really didn't think I was pregnant this month because I just didn't "feel" like I was. But I was so hopeful! Right before I tested I spent a long time in prayer just asking the Lord to give me peace no matter what the results were. Then once I saw that negative sign I broke down. But not for long. I was quickly reminded of my prayers. I know that the Lord will provide, in His timing.

So, now we start again. We wait on the Lord and remain confident in His plan for our lives.

Thank you all so much for your prayers and please keep praying! :)

7 comments:

crissie said...

Beans, you are in my prayers. I've already written you twice about this so I feel like I'm repeating myself a lot for one night! But you know we know what you are going through, so I'm here if you need me.

Suzanne said...

So I have something to tell you...

You know that you are one of my closest friends. My life would not nearly be as complete without my "twin". I feel like I know you just about as well as anyone, and I know this has been one of the most trying times in your life. I pray for you and Brian to get the good news that yall have been hoping and praying for. I can't imagine how disapointing that negative sign must be... BUT I do know one thing-- when the time is right, you will be an AMAZING mother!! One day in the future, you will know why things took longer than you hoped. Until then (like you have always said), stay strong in God's plan for you, Brian, and your un-born baby's lives. It will all make sense one day. Until you get the plus sign you want, remember that your friends, family, and husband love you so much and we are thankful to have you in our lives.

I love you!!!

(I hope this didn't make you cry. I am, but you know I am a total baby)

Abigail Gospodarec said...

Sabrina...
Hmmm. Where to begin. I've been reading and trying to catch up on some people's lives lately that we went to school with. I know that we never really talked that much in school or that we ever hung around the same people, but I am not surprised by your life right now. It seems like you have everything that you want. Sometimes God has other plans for us. Sometimes he feels as if the time isn't right. My sister is going through what you are, and I keep her in my prayers every night. Her course took a little different turn as she miscarried early last year. I hope that you and Brian don't get discouraged, but keep up the faith that you seem to be spreading to everyone. I will keep you and Brian in my prayers...

Abbey

Pineda Family said...

Sabrina,

I continue to pray for you and Brian. I know how hard and frustrating this can be.We are going through the same situation. It can be very frustrating when you see that negative sign but, we have to remember that, "In God's Time.."
I know it is hard to remember that especially when this is something that you want so badly. In his perfect time he will bless you and Brian with a wonderful little baby. You guys will be great parents.

Keep your chin up and if you need to talk please remember that I am always here for you.

Allison

Amy Middleton said...

I'm so sorry you have to go through that. We're standing and believing with you both in prayer!

Suzanne said...
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Suzanne said...

Hey BF,
I have been praying for you and I am so sorry to hear that this month was a bummer again. Trust me that the Lord hears your prayers and crys! Like I said before, He know just what it takes to conform you into just the woman He needs you to be for His purposes. Just this past weekend I watched my grandmother slowly pass away - it was a long and painful death to watch and more traumatically, hear. I have never pleaded with the Lord soo much to take her life, and take it now. But as the hours went on, I found myself getting frustrated with the Lord, wondering why she needed to go through this, why my mom needed to or why I needed to? I felt that I had never prayed so hard, no ever felt so abandoned in my prayers. But the Lord acted in the perfect time according to His will and took her home to be with Him. How do I know it was the perfect time? Well i don't know all of His details, but i do know that making me go through that horrible experience, and making me struggle still tonight, having nightmares and such has made me a more compassionate person. I have always struggled with compassion as i cling so closely with God's sovereignty, but I have always been disappointed in my lack of compassion - esp when a believer has passed away. I think too that from all the crap i went through growing up that i got harded to difficult times. But the Lord HAS answer my prayers for more compassion...weep for those who even remotely suffer from a saddened heart or seemingly unanswered prayer and know I weep for you. But like JOhn 16:20-22 says "You will be sorrowful, but your sorrow will turn into joy. When a woman is giving birth, she has sorrow because her hour has come, but when she has delivered the baby, she no longer remembers the anguish, for joy that a human being has been born into the world. So also you have sorrow now, but I will see you again, and your hearts will rejoice, and no one will take your joy from you." What joy is to come! Trust and find rest in the Lord's perfect timing. I love you!